After being hospitalized, on bedrest for five months, and going through such a difficult pregnancy, my hubby and I aren’t sure if it would be wise for me to get pregnant again, especially because I stay at home with our 2 1/2 year old son. Adoption seems to be a central theme of the Bible, with the topic seen a lot in the fact that God has adopted us as his children and the fact that we are called to care for orphans. So, that is what has given us a heart for adoption and the belief that we may possibly be called to adopt our next child.
This has been a really difficult process for me. It’s sad knowing that I may never have a “normal” pregnancy. It’s also sad knowing that I may never have another birth child or another newborn. On the other hand, the other day I was looking at some mini profiles of children in the state of Maryland waiting to be adopted and my heart broke. These children range in age from 6-21 and some of they may never be adopted. Is it my duty, as a believer, to care for them?
So we’re at this point – trying to decide if we should use an agency or if we should go through the state. A private Christian agency could provide us with a newborn, and the ability to work with a company that shares the same values and beliefs as us. The agency we had been looking at, though, has a wait list two years long. As much as I would love to care for a younger child, I’ve strangely felt called towards the older children I read about. I’m stuck wondering, though, if that is something I can handle. I just keep having to remind myself that if God truly calls us to adopt an older child through the state, He will give us the ability and the know-how to take care of them. That doesn’t mean it will be easy, but it does mean that He will sustain us and teach us.